Okay, maybe I should’ve renamed the title ‘an update of my single life,’ but why not throw in a bit of imagination… right?
The fact is, yes I’m still single, and yes I’m still happy blogging about it. But I’ve recently been thinking about how I deal with being single, rather than how it feels.
I’m one of ‘those’ singles who actually likes it. I like my alone time as it is, so being single is like second nature to me. No, that’s not sarcastic as much as it sounded. Rather, I find it rewarding. A way in which I can find out more about myself, before anyone else finds out those parts of me. A space for me to grow, before I have the opportunity to grow with someone else.
But how do I deal with being single? Honestly, not very well. I’m ‘that’ single (yes, I used that phrase again), that would rather act like they don’t care. Someone of the opposite sex showing any type of interest in me? I shut them off. Someone of the opposite sex tries to make effort with me? I shut them off even more. I don’t know if it’s because I’m stubborn, afraid of feelings, would rather be ‘sassy’ like I don’t care; or a mix of all three.
I don’t know if I’ve developed feelings for anyone anymore because I am so used to getting let down. I hate letting my walls down for someone, so I simply don’t do it anymore. I make life hard work, for myself and for the other person, that in the end it just simply isn’t worth it. I’m too stubborn for my own good sometimes, and really don’t take feelings or anything seriously anymore. That may have something to do with past experiences (*cough, cough*), but hey, my life motto at the moment seems to go something like, “Who knows?”
When the right person comes along, and puts up with my stubborn behaviour, then great. Maybe it’s meant to be. Maybe I’m playing a game that isn’t fair, or maybe I’m simply playing myself out of potential relationships. Who knows? I guess I’ll update you if anything interesting happens; but until then, here’s to being stubborn and being single. Maybe I’ll change one day for someone who deserves it.
Love and happiness always,
xo, Becca
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I love this post! its so important to find yourself before you get with someone!
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I love this post. Definitely stay true to yourself and done change for any guy!
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You’ve got to be true to yourself before finding someone! It’s so so important! Someone deserving will come along!
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I’ve always believed you can never truly be happy with someone else until you’ve learnt to be happy on your own (coming from someone who didn’t find her someone else until I was 27)
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Such an honest post! Sounds like you are happy and content being a team of 1 at the moment…enjoy it and make the most of it! There is plenty of time for relationships 🙂
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In the name of Rupaul: “If you can’t love yourself, how in the hell you gonna love somebody else?” hahah, loved this xxx
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Love this post, so true love is found in loving yourself and there is still enjoyment in being single 👌🏻
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really enjoyed reading this! so many people forget about being comfortable in who they are and run after being in a relationship. first kiss and champagne shimmer looks amazing. I’m a fashion blogger from London, would be super awesome if you could check out http://thestylecupboard.com/
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Hey! I found your blog. I simply typed in single life and there it was. I was trying to see if there was a blogger out there just like me. I couldn’t stop reading. I feel like I could have wrote this myself.
I’ve always been the single girl. All of my friends are tied down, and then there’s me. The 5th wheel. Or 7the wheel. It sucks. Being single sucks. I’ve never really been in a serious relationship. I’ve had relations, but just like you said they always let me down.
I’ve been doing what you’ve been doing- figuring myself out. I’ve written a couple blogs about this. It’s really why I started blogging. To find people like me. To find people who are literally going through some of the same situations as me.
You sound very positive as you write this. I enjoyed reading it. It was easy to read and very very relatable. You are not alone. And like you said, we should be using this time to our advantage. To figure ourselves out. To figure out our favorite ice cream flavor rather than tasting our partners every time. Know what I mean? Thanks for this. Love it!
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