Whatever comes to mind. When sat at my iMac trying to write endless posts about what goes on in my life and the world around me; I came up with this concept of an overflow of words- which is exactly what this blog post is going to be about.
The past week has been an important learning curve for me. Whilst I have beaten myself up and struggled to find who I am again, I have also learnt how to get my self confidence back. I am who I am, and as much as it upsets me when people hate me; I cannot help who I am fundamentally and I am extremely proud of the person I am turning into. Life is a learning process, and I am learning more and more every day.
When writing about my thoughts and feelings, I also like to pour my overflow of words into the concept of love. I am completely drawn in by the whole idea of love- and that mainly happens unintentionally. Love is this amazing, overpowering connection of human affection and it’s something we take for granted every day. I mainly use my past experiences to write little pieces of poetry, and although this is a piece which is far from perfect, it is something that jumps out at me when I talk about this very concept.
You made me the angriest, the saddest and yet the happiest. You were like the calm sea and the storm all at once.
Pretty cliche metaphor right? Well, have you ever loved someone who you feel is unlovable? If you take anything away from this post at all, I hope you love like it’s the only thing you know how to. Embrace your feelings. Remind people their loved- whether that’s your partner, friend, family member, even your pet goldfish, or anything in between. I regret putting my guard up when it comes to loving someone. I pretend I don’t love them so I don’t get hurt. Let it happen. It’s natural, it’s okay and it’s totally normal.
And then we have an overflow of words about my life philosophy. How I live is pretty simple- love, be kind and compassionate, forgive, and try to look forward always. If I am going to live this life, I am going to make it the best it can be. A lot of people don’t understand me as a person, and that’s okay. I like being unique. I like the fact that I’m blind in one eye, or I have the dorkiest personality. I like how I thrive off meeting new people and making new friends. This is genuinely me. Everything you read about on this blog is me, my thoughts and my life.
Maybe i’ll write this and include no punctuation
so the reader can just concentrate on the words
and that’s it
the meaning behind this piece of writing
the fact that mental health is still stigmitised
or we stll live in a world with patriarchy and inequality
quiet
the hush of someone so insecure in themselves due to the pressure
the pressure
of not being good enough
pretty enough
and just like there’s no punctuation used in
this
small
piece
of
writing
maybe this world can change
one
person
at
a
time.
beauty.
equality.
love.
kindness.
compassion.
They deserve grammar.
And the main reason behind my overflow of words? To free myself. To apologise for hurting you, or for wanting to go back in time but not being able to. For admitting that I can still be happy in myself, but also miss the past. This “you” I am referring to could be anyone. In fact, it could refer to everyone in my life right now. This is my escape, because the truth is, I will never stop caring about the people around me. I will never stop embracing the shiz out of who I am. I will never feel guilty about my emotions because that’s what makes me human. That’s what makes me feel alive.
Missing someone is a lot deeper than just missing the memories if you actually valued them. It’s about missing them as a person, and missing caring. Everything else that comes with it.
My overflow of words is a way of freedom for my mind. Maybe I should open my mind more and listen.
Love and happiness always,
xo, Becca
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I love this post. I actually began keeping a journal last year and it has improved my life drastically seeing as it gives me a place to write down everything I’m feeling and doing and dreaming of so that I can get it off my mind and free myself from it. Putting things down in words is one of the most important things I’ve learned this year. Never feel bad for your overflow of words or feelings, at least you don’t bottle them up!
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This is so lovely!! Thank you. X
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I enjoyed reading this. It’s great that you’re able to share how you’ve approached a new learning curve and express yourself. It’s also a positive to hear that you’ve found more confidence in yourself.
Good for you, so you should!
Thank you for sharing.
Natasha x
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Thank you so much lovely!! X
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It’s so important to have confidence and believe in one’s self above everything else. Great post, love your writing. Steph xx
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Thank you so much Steph!! X
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Good on you for finding that inner confidence, its something I too have struggled with.
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You can do it!! Thank you for the lovely feedback X
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This is so powerful. You should be so proud of yourself..this is really moving. Love Lauren x
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🙈🙈🙈 thank you so much lovely! X
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Your poetry is amazing 😮 please feel free to do about 10 posts like this a week :p
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This is so lovely and has actually made my day! Thank you so incredibly much. X
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I love this, I have a journal and i find it amazing to get out everything!!! I too let it flow but you are amazing!!!! xox
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Ahhhh thank you so much lovely! X
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This is such a beautiful post! I say this so much about your blog but your writing is just so genuine and heartfelt I love it! x
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Aren’t you lovely🙈🙈 thank you! X
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(Ps: that made me extremely happy 😊)
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Ahh bless you! Anytime lovely, seriously it’s so nice to see people like you on the internet💞
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Love this post! Being happy with yourself and confident is so important but insanely difficult. Writing helps so much, whether it’s a blog or a journal – it’s really cathartic!
Dani | flourishingfreelancer.com
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Writing really does! Thank you for your feedback lovely X
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I wish I could keep a journal, I always get disheartened by lack of writing flow in it and give up. You seem to have such a way with words though!…
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Thank you so much!! That’s so lovely of you to say. I don’t really have a journal as such either, just literally a book of random writing😂 X
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What a lovely post, it’s reminded me how important my family is to me as they are the ones I love/love me even when we don’t always say it. Your poem is beautiful too, the idea of focusing only on the words is really striking. Becca xx
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Thank you so much lovely!! That’s so nice of you 🙈🙈 X
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Such a deep meaningful post, I love it! Xx
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Loved this! So great that you’re able to express yourself! I loved the poem x
Jordan || Darling Jordan
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Becca I love your poetry so much! – and this post actually really hit me; I’m happy you’re able to express yourself; writing is such a great release 🙂 xx
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Thank you so much!! I’m so glad you enjoyed reading it X
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Wow this is incredible! Your writing is amazing, and I love the poetry! It really made me take a step back and think. I’m pretty proud of who I am, and I need to remind myself not everyone will like me or what I do, but I can’t please everyone. So for now I’ll just continue to love freely and widely, and remind everyone how much I value them x
Becky Shannon xx – Life-by-Becky
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YESSS! It makes me so happy hearing that positive / confident mindset! Thank you for the lovely feedback. X
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I love this post! Creative posts and poetry are some of my favourite to read and I love how well your words flow! X
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Thank you so much lovely!! X
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You write beautiful poetry. You really have a way with words! Being able to write feelings and thoughts on paper is a real talent 🙂 x
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This made me extremely happy- thank you so much!! X
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I found this absolutely beautiful and it left me speechless! Always loved English and actually miss it a lot, finding a way to let everything out
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Wow!! Thank you so much- that’s so lovely of you to say! X
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I really do admire your outlook on life and I can relate to using poetry as a way to make sense of everything, that’s something I used to do constantly at university. Beautiful words, thanks for sharing
Pandora xo
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Thank you so much lovely!! X
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I enjoyed this post. It is great to see that you have found more confidence in yourself and are able to express yourself!
lois xo
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Thank you!! 🙂 X
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I love that you have found this way to express yourself – and you are so good at it! Thank you for sharing this piece of your life with us x
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This made me vvvv happy! Thank you so much lovely. X
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This is such powerful stuff, I really felt it – I had shivers. Thank you for sharing & I’m SO glad you’re finding yourself and that your self confidence is increasing! You’re amazing & you don’t even know it! X
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This is such a lovely thing to say, and made me SO incredibly happy!!!! Thank you so much. Xx
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Always love reading your blog! Such amazing words! Thanks for sharing!
Jessica & James
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Thank you so much lovely!! You too. X
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It’s beautiful gorgeous! Honestly I love the way you express yourself. You free yourself, and everything just flows so well. Every emotion and word is poured out so amazingly. It’s a pleasure reading what you post ❤
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Wow! Thank you so much- this made me extremely happy. I’m so glad you enjoyed reading it! X
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How lovely the world would be if everyone felt the same as you. Great post xx
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That has made me so incredibly happy.🙈🙈 that’s so lovely of you to say- thank you! X
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